| we're going to the depths of hell |
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| Public whinings of a wincing soul |
[19 Jan 2011|03:07pm] |
List of things that are currently stressing me out?
Two apartments - that WERE solid have officially fell through and I'm coming to my final days in my hotel room with limited money.
I'm running out of food.
My friend is living with me in my hotel because her family essentially is a piece of shit and threw her out.
I now have two jobs - possibly a third because I don't ever want to run out of money.
The problem is I need to start these jobs asap, but won't until the first or second week of February (awesome).
My friends don't believe in me.
My family doesn't believe in me - despite the fact that my mother just tries to throw money at the problem instead of having any semblance of emotions attached.
I'm depressed half of the time.
I can't keep up with my writing, which is usually what keeps my mind off of said stressful things.
My life is in a tailspin instead of on the up and up.
A friend has removed me from his life and I'm unsure as to why? (So I'm assuming our almost year long storyline is tanking with that as well. Also awesome.)i'm an overreacting twat.
I'm on a frantic search for a monthly rated hotel to split with my friend but no one seems to have rates and when I get transferred to someone who does? The phone cuts out because I'm in a dead zone.
I'm not okay. I'm a mess. I'm aching. I'm crying for multiple reasons and I just want to succeed, but no one will let me. My ducks were in a line when I came up here and now they're nothing but trouble. Everything that was solid has fallen through aside from my job (which also had a pain in the ass thing happen that I'm too tired to explain). I want to sit around in bed for the rest of my days and never move again, but if I do that then I'll lose even more. So. Wallowing? Not an option. Does anyone have a xanax? I'm also thinking of purging myself of online ramblings. No more updating here or getting in touch with people ooc unless I know them in the flesh. I don't know. Just swirling thoughts. Ignore it. I probably sound like a 15 year old emo kid right now.
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[17 Feb 2009|04:14pm] |
In an attempt of cutting down some drama in my life I've removed people that don't update or are constantly causing issues.
If you can see anything after this then you have survived. If you just see this, then I apologize, you have been removed.
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| it's sad that I have to do this but.... |
[09 Feb 2009|09:51am] |
JOURNAL DISCLAIMER
No, I am not interested in giving you my journal name. Not for money. Not for a trade. Not for anything. I got this name fair and square and it is rightfully mine. All inquiries via PMs, comments on my FO page, or anywhere else will be ignored and promptly deleted. You snooze, you lose. I know Blink was an influence on everyone, but leave me alone. >:[
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